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4.24am..
Everyone is sleeping…
only me…sitting in front of computer,
start to drop some messages here..
I remember,
for my presentation of web blog,
I ever mentioned that web blog can be used for personal online diaries,
Ya, ya, it’s my personal online diary now…..
This is no title for this blog
because i have no idea about its title
totally not idea at all……..
What i know is,
i feel stress..very very stress…and pain
i hate myself… why being so sensitive ,pessimistic ,cowardice and….
i hate everything all those roles and responsibilities
i hate environment surrounding me…
i hate myself cant do anything to handle it,
i hate myself cant do well…
i hate myself why i always thinking too much
i hate myself why i care about their feelings so much
i hate myself why i have putting too much of my expectation on them and cant
stand for their return to me
i hate them
But,
i HATE myself more…
Dunno what’s wrong with me now
Just feel want to express everything out…
But,
don’t dare to simply expressing my feeling out to anyone
It’s hurt..
Actually, i don’t hate them 我不恨他们, 我只是恨我自已…..
I should thank them
cause i’ve growth up becoz of them
learn to be more stronger and try to learn to be "cool + cruel"
cause im afraid…
afraid of hurt by someone. It’s pain..really pain…don’t feel want to
experience it again…
It’s quite a "dark" diary…
my mood is down..down..very down..
don’t feel want to maintain…
如果失去记忆能够带来新的开始,那我宁愿失去所有的记亿,重新开始…
Keep telling myself that,
BE HAPPY
@SMILE AND HAPPY ALWAYS@
hope it’s useful
This is just a personal diary,
just treat it as "normal"
Anyways, wish everyone has a nice day today^
November 14th, 2007 at 6:39 am
actually u hv a same situation like me,i oso unhappy in tis sem n also hate myself very well!
but i think tat my situation very serious than u!y i say so?coz i only hate myself nt other,i feel i do a big wrong 2 them,i quite sorry to them,bt i cant say out it,coz i scare tat if i say sorry n then i cant make fren with them again!
lastly, i wan say tat try to make urself happy like u say above,u can do it!^^
coz u r a happy girl n ur face only show out smile,nt cry,coz smile will make u more pretty n cute!bt cry…hehe…..u will look like ugly:(
haha!
be happy always!^^
i will always stand beside u!^^
November 14th, 2007 at 7:11 am
Haha..Thanks ya… only u have left the comment to me..appreciate it very much…
Seriously, my situation is different from you… U feel so sorry to your friend..cause u think u have made a big mistakes..and you feel nervous that they wont make friends with you anymore…Friends are the one who can share anything with u and accompany u every time if it’s needed… They wont betray and leave u alone if u have making errors..They will correct and help u to solve it..That’s true friend…I will only drop down the message when really really really cant stand 4 it anymore.. I’ll try to act normal if it is within my control..Actually, i have no idea about what am i talking about..C how 1st lar..Anyways, thanks ya^^
November 14th, 2007 at 7:13 am
Haha..Thanks ya… only u have left the comment to me..appreciate it very much…
Seriously, my situation is different from you… U feel so sorry to your friend..cause u think u have made a big mistakes..and you feel nervous that they wont make friends with you anymore…Friends are the one who can share anything with u and accompany u every time if it’s needed… They wont betray and leave u alone if u have making errors..They will correct and help u to solve it..That’s true friend…I will only drop down the message when really really really cant stand 4 it anymore.. I’ll try to act normal if it is within my control..Actually, i have no idea about what am i talking about..C how 1st lar..Anyways, thanks ya^^
November 16th, 2007 at 1:36 am
可爱女孩：
人生当中有很多挑战和挫折是我们必须去面对的…有时候，你真的扛下太多的责任了…这也是我很对不起你们的地方！因为我实在没帮的上很多忙…真的真的非常抱歉…我也是正在努力的过程当中…像那天我跟你说的，我曾经面对这样的问题…就是很讨厌自己这么没用。其实，最近也都会有这种想法但我却没有表现出来而已。我不想让任何人担心自己，也不想被别人看不起！所以，都憋在心里…不过，老实告诉你憋在心里真的非常难受！发泄出来后就没事啦…嘻嘻！所以，当你面对挫折时，要勇敢去面对…它会是让你成长的一个好机会…就像你说的希望自己能失去记忆力。我也曾想过…不过，它对我来说只是我们想逃避的借口而已…逃得了一时，逃得了一世吗？？有时候，逃避是好方法但不是每次都能行得通哦！！好啦，好像写得很长咯…有什么写得不对的地方就请多多见谅啦…希望你能渡过你的难关啦！ 也希望你能做回你自己吧…加油啦！！:)
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November 20th, 2007 at 9:28 am
Wasai…above comments so many words…== Why so sad story of u??don’t be so sad, I already said just now~in the future got somebody leave you a comment, that’s me !But something want to say already forgot liao…because before shieh yee posted her comment I planned to post a comment but unsuccessful so…heehee^^ Anyway, don’t worry,be happy!!Remember, you are the best!you are you!!haha ^^